music monday: billie holiday.
oh, lady day.
billie holiday was the first grown up music decision that i ever made completely by myself. i don’t remember how or when it happened, but i can guarantee you that i have made a concerted effort to listen to or own every one of the songs that she ever recorded.
i love her because of the pain in her voice – the strain that she fights through. although the vast majority of her songs are incredibly sad, she always makes me feel better. perhaps that is because her music allows you to feel whatever it is that you need to feel, and i genuinely believe that billie will get you through anything you got.
because she’s gotten me through a whole hell of a lot.
as my friends and i left one another to go to three separate schools thousands of miles away from one another to start over, we listened to billie one last time together before we all parted ways. through late night papers and studying, when i just didn’t think i could stay awake any longer, a few billie songs got my eyelids open again and i could fight until morning. through all the doubts and fears that come with life, i’ve always turned to my billie holiday albums to find my way back to myself.
‘one of these mornings gonna rise up singing, then you’ll spread your wings and you’ll take to the sky.’